Hi all! Once again I must wallow in my inactivness, my slacking behavoirs that cause me to not be able to write to your wonderful and much needed comments, your spectacular artwork, etc, etc, etc. Holiday break is coming up soon! Then and only THEN will I be able to finally get my incredibly busy and lazy butt to be more active. (I know that made no sense)
So any way. The title of this journal is called GOOD and BAD! To start with the good!
- Going to visit family this weekend and I'm very much looking forward to that. ^_^
- I go into the school one act for state competition. "Into the Woods" is what the play is called.
- This term is almost over with and I will no longer have to do GEOMETRY! *cries with joy*
- I have a job now!

And the BAaaad:

- I'm going through another one of those fazzes where I get really depressed such as
*I feel like I have to much on my shoulders
* I feel worthless and incompetient
* To sum it up I pretty much hate myself.... -_-
- My geometry teacher hates my guts and is constantly picking on me during class and calling me after accusing me of doing things I didn't do.
- I am a failer at my goals
- I'm a loser. Boys and girls make fun of me to my face.
- People are... are... I dont know. In my english class my teacher is really shoving it down my throught that we are all evil deep down inside and that without societies pressures we will just kill ourselfs and be savages. (If you cant guess we are reading the Lord of the Flies in class) At first I didn't believe it, but then I watch movies like "The Devils Rejects", "Clockwork Orange" and "Hostel" and I start to wonder. Even if we arn't the killers, we are the writters, the viewers, and the fans of such terrible things. Why are we so obsessed with pain and torture and kill. Why do we get a thrill and gratification when watching things so real and aweful?! I'm a the same? Am I just as bad as BTK, Rob Zombie, and all the other sicko's out there? *figurativly slits wrists and sighs heavily* My counsler tells me I think to much. She must be right. But it makes me even sadder that now the Christmas Tree with all its innocent wonder brings me no joy. Its like I'm a lost little black dob in a world full of ignorant terrible people who seams to be the only one feeling as evil and terrible as they make me out to be. *figurativly dies*
This is just sort of how I'm feeling latley. I know that half of you that watch me probably wont even read this (or get this far) and I cant say that I blame you. If you did (which you must have or else you wouldn't be reading this now) thanks for dealing with my misguided adolecent feelings. You're a true friend. Who ever you are.
Thats all the mopping for now. Aue-Vue... or however the hell you say it.


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